This little jewel is handling many themes at once. I was fumbling with the topic of unrequited love in my mind for quite some time and then one day, one of the first nice ones, I was lying on a bench looking at the sky and there was this optical illusion of the pole falling while the sky remained still (of course it was the moving clouds). So then the two topics merged, and more layers came, and especially the broader theme of living in the same geopolitical space but experiencing essentially different realities.
Reflection
For a second I thought
we were two-gether
mirroring each other
sharing an understanding
of this world that is melting
like ice-cream on hot asphalt.
Poetry Issues #27 is the journal that poetry issues was always meant to be: A newsletter containing all the latest work (from January to April 2023, beginning from the oldest). It includes poems, objects, paintings, essays, videos and songs. Thinking back to those months... They were difficult, tumultuous, full of happenings and life events and stresses, sickness and winter, responsibilities, early wakings and all-night parties and early wakings, reflections and self-reflections. Yet there was always the time – no, there was no time; there was always the need, to create. And some beautiful things were made, some wonderful ideas were born.
chapter #1
The first in a series of illustrated dialogues, #chapter I goes wild in the combination of image and text embracing punk aesthetics and posing an important question: How important is the legibility of text for expressing its meaning and how much can we omit before the narrative breaks?
#chapter I
january 23
The earth had turned upside down
so I woke up and saw the moon
where it had never been before
or was it me that had changed place?
No, no, you said
the world has turned upside down and
I am sisyphus or maybe
it's the summer that's coming.
In case you get lost, I made a
We walk through deserts
in alien lands.
Our mouths
are running
dry.
Another little boxed world. Boxes represent the confines of our existence, largely but not exclusively within society. I always try to combine playfulness with profound themes, as I believe that this playfulness speaks directly to the core of our existence, to an inner child.
Visually, technological elements (ear pods, antennas, chips) are juxtaposed to the actual act of listening, and finding meaning, while strong words demand individually and as a whole our attention.
The text of this piece is composed of found material from the text that accompanied Gernot Wieland's video Turtleneck Phantasies (2022) at Kindl – Center for Contemporary Art, Berlin. The video-art piece was highly inspirational and much of this inspiration was transferred to the text describing it. I took pieces of it and made something new, opening up the dialogue.
Learn to Listen
childhood
second skin
what remains?
a kind of obsession
protective remembrance
words
texts and drawings
dance, the absurd moments
The ubiquitous presence
all the little forms
traumatic experiences
excluded
I have phantasies
and (mostly illegible)
little attention.
What stories do I tell myself
unheard, and forgotten voices
possible ways of returning to the centre
anchor
a serious shipwreck
whose stories are told
dedicated to the murmuring, the illegible, the unspeakable,
In other words
Contemporary
The Monster Bride or Metamorphosis of the Object
I always thought that if you have even the slightest view to the natural world, you don't need television and you never get bored. There is always something happening: A cloud, a breeze, some wafting smell. Even inside, if you have a fireplace, you can spend hours watching what is possibly the strongest resemblance of a mystical dance the natural world has to offer. All these joys of the senses and the mind are connected to some kind of movement, some kind of wave.
However, there is also another level of observation: The observation of the unmoving, the still, the silent. If you observe anything long enough, something magical happens: It starts changing before your eyes. The object exists only in immediate connection to our perception of it. If the objects were conscious of their existence, they would be divided between the view of themselves and our view of them. Which view would be holding the truth? These were my thoughts, as I photographed this object and watched the monster-bride endlessly change before my eyes. Different corners, different light, different relation to space, to itself. It began as an interpretation of an amplifier by its maker (Christian Kennecke, aka @ernstunited) and in the perception of those observing it it became a bridal dress, a bride, a monster, a purse.
It has been some time since then, and I'm still thinking about the monster-bride, probably because I hadn't examined anything so intently in a long time. Watching the object for so long left a strong impression that is still growing in me. Obviously, observing hasn't stopped when I took my eyes away. My mind is still processing, my perception of the object is still changing, evolving perhaps. If you watch anything long enough, you fall in love with it: It becomes an extension and expression of you, a poem that touches you deeply. I am not sure if hate is even a possible feeling, once you get close enough to anything, or if feeling depends on the object's nature, if such a thing exists, or our own disposition. In any case, if I ever get bored, if I ever feel empty, all I have to do is get out of my head, stretch my gaze to anything my gaze can reach, and enjoy the show.
I used this nice photo (which is one of my odes to the public space) as a prompt and wrote chapter II of of a yet unnamed series of poems (look chapter I above). Unlike fight (which might by the way, be chapter 0), instead of the image here it's the text that is moving. It's the first time that I'm experimenting with animated text and I must say that I like the idea a lot.
#chapter II
We sat together.
A body's gap between us
for the wind to roam free.
We hummed an old song
in false notes. The wind
sang along.
An eternal second
– a good company.
A sad song wrapped in pink. I know microfiction and micropoetry exist, so here I introduce the micro-song. It's quite addictive when on repeat.
To Catch a Dream
You set your traps
from wall to wall
hide
in small corners
in the dark
but don't you know
that you can't catch a dream?
The dream catches you.
Lipstick (acrylic and oil pastel on canvas, 40x30) is the first in a series of paintings that question our dependence on objects for validation, attraction, confidence and gender identification. The object is larger than life, because larger than life is the space it occupies in our lives, and the text balances between existential threat and singalong lightness.
A little piece about our constructed sense of the future, our need not only to believe in it but to make it happen, our desire to be eternal.
Broken Hands
In the Indo-European language
there was no future tense.
We carved the future
tense
with hammers, chisels, and might.
Our hands bled over the earth
they stained the stone, the cold messenger
announcing our triumph
over time
we would be gone
only to return
as a participle.
You can read more about the poetry issues project here.
A little piece about our constructed sense of the future, our need not only to believe in it but to make it happen, our desire to be eternal.
Broken Hands
In the Indo-European language
there was no future tense.
We carved the future
tense
with hammers, chisels, and might.
Our hands bled over the earth
they stained the stone, the cold messenger
announcing our triumph
over time
we would be gone
only to return
as a participle.
A sad song wrapped in pink. I know microfiction and micropoetry exist, so here I introduce the micro-song. It's quite addictive when on repeat.
To Catch a Dream
You set your traps
from wall to wall
hide
in small corners
in the dark
but don't you know
that you can't catch a dream?
The dream catches you.
I used this nice photo (which is one of my odes to the public space) as a prompt and wrote chapter II of of a yet unnamed series of poems (here is chapter I). Unlike fight (which might by the way, be chapter 0), instead of the image here it's the text that is moving. It's the first time that I'm experimenting with animated text and I must say that I like the idea a lot.
#chapter II
We sat together.
A body's gap between us
for the wind to roam free.
We hummed an old song
in false notes. The wind
sang along.
An eternal second
– a good company.
Another little boxed world. Boxes represent the confines of our existence, largely but not exclusively within society. I always try to combine playfulness with profound themes, as I believe that this playfulness speaks directly to the core of our existence, to an inner child.
Visually, technological elements (ear pods, antennas, chips) are juxtaposed to the actual act of listening, and finding meaning, while strong words demand individually and as a whole our attention.
The text of this piece is composed of found material from the text that accompanied Gernot Wieland's video Turtleneck Phantasies (2022) at Kindl – Center for Contemporary Art, Berlin. The video-art piece was highly inspirational and much of this inspiration was transferred to the text describing it. I took pieces of it and made something new, opening up the dialogue.
Learn to Listen
childhood
second skin
what remains?
a kind of obsession
protective remembrance
words
texts and drawings
dance, the absurd moments
The ubiquitous presence
all the little forms
traumatic experiences
excluded
I have phantasies
and (mostly illegible)
little attention.
What stories do I tell myself
unheard, and forgotten voices
possible ways of returning to the centre
anchor
a serious shipwreck
whose stories are told
dedicated to the murmuring, the illegible, the unspeakable,
In other words
Contemporary
In case you get lost, I made a
We walk through deserts
in alien lands.
Our mouths
are running
dry.
The first in a series of illustrated dialogues, #chapter I goes wild in the combination of image and text embracing punk aesthetics and posing an important question: How important is the legibility of text for expressing its meaning and how much can we omit before the narrative breaks?
#chapter I
january 23
The earth had turned upside down
so I woke up and saw the moon
where it had never been before
or was it me that had changed place?
No, no, you said
the world has turned upside down and
I am sisyphus or maybe
it's the summer that's coming.
Poetry issues #26, the last poetry issue featuring many works, was published in five parts between March and December 2022. It's a body of work that largely attempts to take poetry issues to the next level: The pieces are steadily leaving the 2D world, more dimensions (eg. audio and video) are being incorporated into the work, and the visual elements mingle more than ever with the text. And since this is just the beginning, I have decided to stop working in bundles of poems and let each piece grow on its own, and be published as a separate unit.
Part I: Our Lost Babies (poem), Mirrors (artwork)
A "lost baby" is anything we dreamt of and didn't flourish, everything we strived for but lost in the end. Creation and loss are main themes in this piece, but closely connected to letting go and moving on.
Mirrors is a larger assemblage piece (95x60), the first one in a series of worlds. Every box is its own small world but they are all connected and constitute a single piece, like a mind with its several thoughts and ideas.
For more detail:
Part II: Distance, a handmade book (and a song)
My own handmade paper, colored and illustrated with a mixed media technique, integrating collage elements, handwritten text and lots of color, that I always love.
Distance
The howling of the wind
triumphant in the space between us.
I just want to sleep
imagine the death of the wind
silence under the yellow sun
children's laughter roaring
a happy dog's bark.
That's how you tolerate loneliness
how sadness becomes sweet.
In a dream you held my hand
and led me through a dancing crowd.
In that dream you were my man.
An impression of the physical book:
Also, here's a link to the digital flipbook or, if you prefer, to the .pdf.
Part III: A Fight (video with sound)
A closer blending of text and image. In the video, the text is spoken and the image is moving. Everything changes a little in benefit of the whole.
A Fight
You were afraid that winter would come
and it was true: the days were getting shorter.
You longed for that last day on the beach
but the weather had already changed.
The end, most of the time, doesn’t come with a bang
but as an echo of thoughtless words or as an aftertaste
of dry, bitter grass.
It’s crazy how the weather changes
faster than my mood.
Anyway, I believe we’ll make it
through the winter.
We both haven’t been really good
at being weighed down by reality.
“Lightness” has the word “light” in it. Light is spring.
The last day on the beach I was alone.
I found in my bag a kernel of corn
that you had given me. It was stale
but I ate it ceremonially. It was late
it was cloudy and I was cold.
I set our messages of fire. We’ve had enough
sun for a summer. Now it was time to step back inside.
Part IV: Appropriation
I appropriated this piece in the same way man appropriates nature, in the same way that I am appropriated, boxed, controlled, tamed: the victim becomes the perpetrator.
So, I made sure
the animals
would graze
behind a wire
fence.
Part V: tinder date
More on the playful than the profound side, using the same superficiality that it comments upon, "tinder date" is the result of careful observation of the online dating world. I view my character with empathy, but of course my viewpoint is almost never a flattering one.
My tinder date
I shaved my balls
I rode my horse
I did my best
She never came
Now who will save me?
You can read more about the poetry issues project here.
More on the playful than the profound side, using the same superficiality that it comments upon, "tinder date" is the result of careful observation of the online dating world. I view my character with empathy, but of course my viewpoint is almost never a flattering one.
My tinder date
I shaved my balls
I rode my horse
I did my best
She never came
Now who will save me?
This project ends the 26th volume of poetry issues and the poetry issues project itself comes to an end. A new cycle begins, of course, but as I am turning artistically towards more three-dimensional representations of the text and as every visual and every text project become intertwined, I feel that they grow on their own and not as part of a bundle. I want to give them thus the right to exist more than ever apart from each other.
If you are curious, you can read more about the poetry issues project here.